SHATTERED ILLUSIONS: A DEEP DIVE INTO EGO DEATH AND INDIVIDUAL DIFFERENTIATION
I'm Jacqueline Emma Moseby, AKA Jaxx, a Certified HE(ART) Awakening Coach, Guide, and Mentor.
From navigating 7 million metaphorical Rabbit Holes to being struck by an "Awakening train" and riding seven roller coasters, I write into the tumultuous yet illuminating stages of my Awakening. It launched a powerful business for me and now I get to help you do the same through Awakening modalities and my Signature Processes.
"IMAGINATION BECAME MY PEN OF DESIGN"
I have merged my corporate careers with a unique way of INDIVIDUAL DIFFERENTIATION and Authentic Expression! Through my Awakening I discovered the art of merging the "woo-woo" with the boardroom, infusing my Spiritual Awakening into the corporate hustle.
I’m delighted to offer an interactive experience through my Articles, and creating a Soul’s Quest Journal for you has been a true pleasure! My aim is to provide more than just a article to read. If the content resonates with you and brings about insights, shifts, visions, or memories, I believe you deserve a special space to delve deeper into the topics your soul is guiding you to explore.
At the beginning of each Article, you’ll find soul-searching questions related to the topic of the Article. Use these questions as a starting point to do a self led Coaching Session and dive deep into your Inner work. The Journal is a valuable resource that will help you extract the maximum benefit from the Article content and empower you to address any challenges you may be facing in the present moment.
Information is alive and pulsing with its own Consciousness, resonating with yours.
I’m delighted to offer an interactive experience through my Articles, and creating a Soul’s Quest Journal for you has been a true pleasure! My aim is to provide more than just a article to read. If the content resonates with you and brings about insights, shifts, visions, or memories, I believe you deserve a special space to delve deeper into the topics your soul is guiding you to explore.
At the beginning of each Article, you’ll find soul-searching questions related to the topic of the Article. Use these questions as a starting point to do a self led Coaching Session and dive deep into your Inner work. The Journal is a valuable resource that will help you extract the maximum benefit from the Article content and empower you to address any challenges you may be facing in the present moment.
Information is alive and pulsing with its own Consciousness, resonating with yours.
“THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO NOT STOP QUESTIONING. CURIOSITY HAS ITS OWN REASON FOR EXISTING.“
-Albert Einstein
JOURNAL QUESTIONS:
- In what ways have my blind spots shaped the choices I’ve made in my life?
- How has my spiritual awakening journey changed my relationship with my fears and insecurities?
- What truths about myself have I discovered during my awakening that I was previously oblivious to?
- In moments of profound change, what strategies have I developed to maintain balance and resilience?
- As I continue to evolve, how can I integrate my newfound awareness into my daily actions and decisions?
EGO DEATH – AWAKENING
STAGE 1 – PART 3
“Waking up is an endless loss of what you think you know, like a wave of destruction that leaves nothing, but what is true.”
– UNMANI
INTRODUCTION:
Have you ever encountered a moment so transformative that it reshaped your understanding of yourself and the surrounding world? A moment that challenged every preconception about your life? Allow me to share a personal tale of enlightenment that may echo your own revelations and metamorphoses.
Embarking on this journey of self-discovery is to venturing into a new realm of comprehension and insight, to shatter illusions and go on a deep dive into Ego Death and INDIVIDUAL DIFFERENTIATION. It’s a voyage rife with revelations, where Awakening to your genuine essence in the familiar territories of family, work, and societal roles feels like traversing an unknown dimension. This journey compels you to confront and accept every facet of your existence, encouraging a deep dive into your soul’s depths and the universe’s vastness. It’s a pilgrimage towards transformation, revealing your truest self, steered by intuition and the subtle guidance of Source.
Welcome to a transformative quest into the heart of spiritual awakening. This journey dares us to face our innermost selves, illuminating parts of our lives we’ve perhaps ignored or avoided. This expedition is not for the timid—it calls to the courageous, those willing to acknowledge their vulnerabilities, confront their BLINDSPOTS, and emerge more enlightened and powerful.
WHAT YOU WILL PONDER:
Explore the fascinating concept of we WAKE UP. Gain a deeper understanding of how this process dissolves the illusionary self-identity, paving the way for a more authentic sense of individuality. Find practical strategies to embrace and navigate through this transformative journey. You will unveil the mysteries of your true essence and learn how to live in alignment with what you have awakened to. The skills and knowledge you gain will be invaluable tools as you forge ahead on your path, filled with clarity, purpose, and a profound sense of fulfillment.
MY PERSONAL STORY:
I felt a different type of naked. I felt like I had been dropped in some foreign place in a duffel bag like Jane- Doe fully covered in fresh tattoos with no memories of them getting there! Can you relate? That is exactly how I felt when my awakening happened! I felt like I had fallen from any form of grace, it was like I had hit concrete. My world of my persona, beliefs , perceptions, career, finances, home, crumbled all around me. It was like waking up in a back alley having no clue, I lost everything. I was bewildered, traumatized and felt like the universe had left me, tattooed with clues, I had yet to decipher. So believe me I understand what you may have been going through!
I was a little frightened, confused, estranged, at a loss for words, isolated, tearful, craving solitude, yet curious with this warrior spirit emerging. I had questions like : NOW WHAT? Floods of epiphanies and new forms of awareness came rushing in! This hunger to hunt for what all these internal imprints were took a primordial position.
Welcome to being Awakened! It’s fucking wild!
YOUR JOURNEY:
Now waking up like a Jane-Doe gets even more wild when you are still surrounded by your family, work colleagues ,husband , kids, spouse, religious groups in whichever forms it comes. It is like you are waking up to another UNIVERSE inside while the eternal continues to play out on the outside around you. This is like a double mirror vision going on all day and night. This is one of the toughest steps to get through, yikes I remember! If you are here just jump on call. lol. The questions you ask yourself everyday : do you say something or don’t you? There are landmines and risks everywhere if you expose it all and everything has changed so it will therefore change everything!
This is what is going to strengthen that voice of yours and teach you to stand in your truth and to honor what is true for you! No matter how or what or who or why anything in all the things! NO matter what you have been taught! Yes you have to be wise at this stage! Careful steps and strategies depending on your circumstance just need to be taken into consideration. Give yourself some time, A LOT of time too for you to work through things and savor all that is exploding and going on inside of you ! Script your heart out at this point! I had millions of journals!!! Quietly go on meditational walks listening to guidance along the way. Listen to how your intuition is going to guide you as well on your awakening. Follow the rabbits down the rabbit hole, I mean you are already following a ginger one now! Lol !
Give yourself even more time to decipher the clues the universe and God and your higher self has for you! Study and learn and go within for a while. It is a sacred sanctuary time and it will teach you to hold intense emotions in troubled and turbulent times! You will forge resilience! Do not hide! Success is built in silence! You will come out when you are ready and I will help you to do that! Right there are a couple of other things I want to address. Your journey is not linear and it can reach low depths and high heights , even beyond human senses.
It is not pretty at times and It’s why I am here to help you navigate it, a bit easier. Now a very cool thing that can happen, like it did with me, is that you may have received downloads from above and big bold visions that can leave you feeling like , HOW on earth am I going to get there! You may feel like you are under-resourced when compared to what you have been awakened to! This is what you come to me with! These big bold beautiful visions, they are the GOLD so many just dismiss. Wrapped up in this expansive experience are gifts that will remain the best thing that has ever happened to you. I know it does not seem like that at the moment but it will.
You might be grasping at question like,
- What just happened?
- You might be grasping at questions like, am I dreaming?
- What’s my real name?
- No really who is all behind this fiasco?
- Have we been lied to for centuries?
- What did I wake up from?
You’ve realised how little you have known, but also at the same time you feel like you have just remembered centuries of universal truths. You like a stunned animal, just knowing deep inside you can never return to anything you once knew. I can understand you may feel like the universe has abandoned you, this is actually deeply ingrained in the collective and it is a wound we all carry even the ones that have not had their spiritual awakening yet.
I mean, I feel it is fair for you to contemplate if you agreed to come to earth and drop yourself in the middle of a life, plan the clues you would leave for you to find you and the universe. Then awaken to the fact you may have never been human to begin with, and there is a cosmic monumental universal plan that you had to forget in order to experience it. Bahahaha lol.
There are plenty of rabbit holes to burrow down in there! I am certain I will write about them. Once you have assembled yourself from the duffel bag you realize that there have been clues left for you everywhere! Your intuition antenna has been turned back on, you have been activated and now the rabbit holes, the yellow brick roads, will be made visible and you will start to decipher the clues that are in your wake. You will start to see the codes they have built into the matrix, but that’s when things get super interesting.
It is ok along the way to feel a little frightened, confused, estranged, at a loss for words, isolated, tearful, craving solitude, yet this curiosity makes you feel a sense of warmth and safety in it all. A warrior archetype will want to emerge, ready for an espionage to explore and expand these epiphanies and a new form of awareness. You will become a hunter of the force that put you here and want to explore everything! I mean I am still curious to find out whether or not I was the one that set my whole awakening up? Lol.
AWAKENING TO YOUR BLINDSPOTS:
Lastly I would like to bring to your attention that if you are the likes of a Jane- Doe then when you are awakening, you are also awakening to seeing your own blindspots! A spiritual awakening means you get every band aid or false perception or lie or bullshit story ripped off your eyes. It is a paradoxical sensation because when it happens it’s monumentally painful but it feels so right and deeply satisfying at the same time. The universe, your higher self and even you planned the moment it was time to give you full spectrum vision. Lights on baby!
The show has been revealed, the game has changed. This yellow brick road of what you have been shown is rough but if you are able to walk it and absorb it, sense it, look at it, face it and move through the shadows into the other side of the reflection then it’s going to be ok! We go “blind” only because that trauma, that experience is so opposed to what we believe that to truly face it would mean shattering our view of ourselves and everything in this world we have ever known.
SELF INTROSPECTION:
- What am I afraid to know?
- What’s the one thing I least want to accept?
- What do I sense without knowing?
- “Is there anything about me that I don’t seem to see but is obvious to you?”
When the awakening floods your mind so your soul can speak it will feel like you are strip-dancing and skydiving, completely exposed yet energized by it all at the same time.
Let it flow. SURRENDER. It is your SOUL’S journey, it knows how you got here & why!
MANAGING THE ABRUPTNESS OF AWAKENING: AN ACTIONABLE ROADMAP:
- PAUSE AND BREATHE : Begin by acknowledging the turbulence. Allow yourself moments of stillness each day to simply breathe and be with your emotions without judgment. This can help ground your energy and bring clarity.
- JOURANL YOUR JOURNEY: Start documenting your thoughts, feelings, and revelations. Writing can be a therapeutic tool for understanding the complex layers of your awakening. Note the patterns, the synchronicities, and even the chaos. This written record becomes a mirror reflecting your inner growth.
- SEEK SUPPORT: Find a community or a mentor who has walked this path before. Sharing your experiences with those who can empathize and offer guidance is invaluable. Whether it’s through online forums, spiritual gatherings, or individual mentorship, support can significantly ease the intensity of your awakening.
- MINDFULLNESS & MEDITATION: Engage in mindfulness practices and meditation to help center your thoughts and emotions. This can help in managing fear, confusion, and the overwhelming sensations often associated with spiritual awakening. These practices anchor you in the present, helping to sift through the noise.
EXPLORE CREATIVE OUTLETS: Channel your energies and revelations into creative expressions like art, music, dance, or writing. Creativity can be a powerful medium to explore your inner world, process complex feelings, and express your transformation in tangible forms.
GENTLE PHYSICAL ACTIVITY: Incorporate light physical activities that you love and maybe even explore new ones into your routine. Physical movement can help release stored energy and emotions, fostering a sense of balance between mind, body, and spirit.
SET BOUNDRIES AND HONOR YOUR NEEDS: Learn to say no to situations or relationships that drain your energy. It’s essential to protect your space and energy, giving yourself permission to rest and rejuvenate as needed.
REFLECT ON YOUR NEW VALUES AND NEW DREAMS: Utilize this time of self-discovery to reassess your values, goals, and dreams. What is truly important to you? How does your awakening align with your deepest desires? Adjust your life’s direction accordingly.
Go over to Dr. Sue Morter website where she has the Center Chanel breathe work. It will help to bring you back home to you and back inside your body to integrate and ground your new awakening. I will link her website in the resources.
YOUR EXPERIENCE:
I stand as both a witness to your transformation and a companion on your journey. As your senses heighten and you navigate the labyrinth of self-discovery, know that I resonate with the cacophony of emotions you’re experiencing—the uncertainty, the thrill, and the profound hunger for truths yet untold. Through conversations whispered in the quiet of your mind and the silent nods of recognition, I understand the depth of your quest. It’s as if the vibrations of your soul’s dance echo within me. Together, we’ll turn the pages of this cosmic playbook, embracing each snapshot of revelation as we carve a path to awakening that is uniquely ours.
How does this contribute to you building wealth,
health, success & happiness?
Understanding and embracing your spiritual awakening, as daunting as it may appear, is integral to cultivating wealth, health, success, and happiness. This journey fosters a deep sense of self-awareness and authenticity, which are priceless assets. In recognizing your blind spots and embracing vulnerability, you pave the way for true prosperity by aligning your actions with your innermost values and purpose. Health benefits manifest as you become in tune with the needs of your body and mind, leading to choices that support holistic well-being. Success follows when you trust your intuition to navigate life’s complex decisions, and happiness blossoms from the freedom and courage to live a life that is genuinely yours, liberated from past traumas and untrue beliefs. Your spiritual evolution then becomes a catalyst for a richer and more fulfilling life.
“ I am here to guide you to your individual differentiation and your personal revolution!”
“Rising and going through the stages of Awakening can be brutal but it leads you to the paths of success, fulfilment and profound transformations.”
WIDSOM JEMS:
YOU ARE A PIECE OF ART! This is a time to piece yourself back together in a way that can reset the trajectory of, where you go, what you do, and how you do it forever. It is my Genius to help you gather the pieces of what you have thrown away or not even been conscious about and weave it into a incredible future journey where this place that you are in gets to be the last time that happens.
YOUR SPIRITUAL KEYS:
There are universal keys that resonate on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual planes. These keys are not just concepts, but actionable insights that align with the wisdom shared in your transformation journey.
- Key of Awareness:
– The ability to see beyond the veils of illusion, to recognize the blindspots and the deeper truths of your existence. - Key of Resilience:
– This key equips you to withstand the upheavals and the emotional outpouring that often accompanies awakening. - Key of Intuition:
– Heightened intuition allows you to sense the subtle energies and messages that guide your journey. - Key of Transformation:
– The power to change, evolve, and adapt in response to the new insights and knowledge you acquire. - Key of Authenticity:
– As you strip back layers of false perceptions, this key helps you to live in a way that is true to your soul’s calling. - Key of Courage:
– The bravery required to explore the unknown and face inner demons is a crucial part of the process. - Key of Wisdom:
– With each step on the yellow brick road, you gain wisdom to discern the cosmic codes and navigate life’s complexities.
There are universal keys that resonate on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual planes. These keys are not just concepts, but actionable insights that align with the wisdom shared in your transformation journey.
- Key of Awareness:
– The ability to see beyond the veils of illusion, to recognize the blindspots and the deeper truths of your existence. - Key of Resilience:
– This key equips you to withstand the upheavals and the emotional outpouring that often accompanies awakening. - Key of Intuition:
– Heightened intuition allows you to sense the subtle energies and messages that guide your journey. - Key of Transformation:
– The power to change, evolve, and adapt in response to the new insights and knowledge you acquire. - Key of Authenticity:
– As you strip back layers of false perceptions, this key helps you to live in a way that is true to your soul’s calling. - Key of Courage:
– The bravery required to explore the unknown and face inner demons is a crucial part of the process. - Key of Wisdom:
– With each step on the yellow brick road, you gain wisdom to discern the cosmic codes and navigate life’s complexities.
PONDERS AND WONDERS:
In conclusion, a spiritual awakening is a profound, life-changing experience that can at times feel both overwhelming and liberating. It entails the unmasking of previously blind spots, resulting in confronting and accepting harsh realities about oneself and the universe. The awakening process illuminates the path to self-exploration, intuition activation, resilience building, truth embracement, and courageous curiosity. It leads you through the cosmic codes and paradoxical truths to explore and learn to navigate. While the journey may be daunting, remember that it is your soul’s journey, and it knows the way. Embrace the process, surrender to the flow, and let your soul guide you. As you go through the stages, you will find that every challenge faced and transcended brings you one step closer to success, fulfilment, and profound transformation. The journey may demand a complete reset of your life’s trajectory, but with every piece you gather and reassemble, you are crafting a future that is authentically and uniquely yours.
AWAKENING FITNESS:
When you have had an awakening so many shifts happen in your mind, body, soul and spirit. Your body changes…Your mind changes…Your soul changes…Your spiritual walk changes… Finding your footing after an Awakening can be overwhelming, with all the changes and fluctuations. You need to get Mindfit, SoulFit, Bodfit, Spiritfit... to what you have Awakened to.
RABBIT HOLE NAVIGATIONS:
I’d like to emphasise that the most Powerful resource available is your own experience with the Source, with God, in whatever way feels Authentic to you. Engaging personally with the Divine Consciousness allows you to realize who you are, providing you with all the knowledge you need through this connection. It is in the quiet moments, when you simply allow yourself to connect, ask, and enter a state of meditation, that you can commune with your creator. Your heart holds all the answers, and you possess an internal guidance system that is awakening and now requires new training and refinement. This journey involves unlearning old patterns and rediscovering how to feel in new ways!
- Spiritual Awakening: Understand and Activate Your Spiritual Awakening
- The Leap: The Psychology of Spiritual Awakening
- Eckhart Tolle’s Teachings.
- Human Design: Discover the Person You Were Born to Be
- The Gene Keys: Unlocking the Higher Purpose Hidden in Your DNA
- Caroline Cory’s: Omnium Universe
- Dr Sue Morter: Live Awake
“It’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
– LEWIS CAROL, ALICE IN WONDERLAND
Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to?”
If you’re navigating the aftermath of Ego Death, having tasted awakening and seeking strategic guidance for your rebirth.
HOP ON YOUR COACHING SESSION TO DISCOVER THE ROADMAP, CUSTOMISED TO YOU, TO CRAFT STRATEGIES AND POTENTIAL IN THIS PIVOTAL PHASE.
