EMBRACING CHANGE: THE JOURNEY FROM FETAL POSITION TO SELF-ACTUALISATION
I'm Jacqueline Emma Moseby, AKA Jaxx, a Certified HE(ART) Awakening Coach, Guide, and Mentor.
From navigating 7 million metaphorical Rabbit Holes to being struck by an "Awakening train" and riding seven roller coasters, I write into the tumultuous yet illuminating stages of my Awakening. It launched a powerful business for me and now I get to help you do the same through Awakening modalities and my Signature Processes.
"IMAGINATION BECAME MY PEN OF DESIGN"
I have merged my corporate careers with a unique way of INDIVIDUAL DIFFERENTIATION and Authentic Expression! Through my Awakening I discovered the art of merging the "woo-woo" with the boardroom, infusing my Spiritual Awakening into the corporate hustle.
I’m delighted to offer an interactive experience through my Articles, and creating a Soul’s Quest Journal for you has been a true pleasure! My aim is to provide more than just a article to read. If the content resonates with you and brings about insights, shifts, visions, or memories, I believe you deserve a special space to delve deeper into the topics your soul is guiding you to explore.
At the beginning of each Article, you’ll find soul-searching questions related to the topic of the Article. Use these questions as a starting point to do a self led Coaching Session and dive deep into your Inner work. The Journal is a valuable resource that will help you extract the maximum benefit from the Article content and empower you to address any challenges you may be facing in the present moment.
Information is alive and pulsing with its own Consciousness, resonating with yours.
I’m delighted to offer an interactive experience through my Articles, and creating a Soul’s Quest Journal for you has been a true pleasure! My aim is to provide more than just a article to read. If the content resonates with you and brings about insights, shifts, visions, or memories, I believe you deserve a special space to delve deeper into the topics your soul is guiding you to explore.
At the beginning of each Article, you’ll find soul-searching questions related to the topic of the Article. Use these questions as a starting point to do a self led Coaching Session and dive deep into your Inner work. The Journal is a valuable resource that will help you extract the maximum benefit from the Article content and empower you to address any challenges you may be facing in the present moment.
Information is alive and pulsing with its own Consciousness, resonating with yours.
“THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO NOT STOP QUESTIONING. CURIOSITY HAS ITS OWN REASON FOR EXISTING.“
-Albert Einstein
JOURNAL QUESTIONS:
- In what areas of my life do I feel the most resistance to change, and what might be the underlying reasons for this resistance?
- Reflecting on the concept of a ‘growth mindset,’ how do I typically respond to setbacks, and what steps can I take to view challenges more positively?
- What are the specific goals I want to achieve for my personal growth, and how will I measure my progress towards these goals?
- Which habits do I want to cultivate or change to support my personal growth, and what plan can I put in place to ensure I follow through?
- How can I align my daily actions with my long-term vision for myself, and what changes will I make to rebalance my life accordingly?
EGO DEATH – AWAKENING
STAGE 1 – PART 1
WHAT IF THE FETAL POSE IS THE POSITION THAT WILL REBIRTH YOU INTO NEW BEGINNINGS?
INTRODUCTION:
In the quest of self-discovery and personal growth, we often find ourselves nestled in comfort zones where change seems daunting. Embracing the transition from the self protecting personality to the soulful self as Dr. Sue Morter would say : unravels the cocoon of safety we wrap around ourselves to confront the inevitable—change. This journey is neither linear nor easy, yet it’s a path brimming with rich experiences that lead towards remembering your trueself and who you really are.
In this article we come to the understanding of the significance of the fetal position as a metaphor for resistance to change, to exploring hands-on strategies for self-actualisation and rebirth. The narrative is a reflection of my own personal metamorphosis, where the challenges I faced became the catalysts for change—providing lessons that I hope will resonate and inspire you to unfold into your most authentic self.
WHAT YOU WILL PONDER:
In this article, you will learn the invaluable lesson of resilience in the face of adversity and the power inherent in accepting one’s vulnerability as a strength, not a weakness. You will discover strategies for navigating through the darkest moments of your life with grace and emerge on the other side with a renewed sense of purpose and vision for your future. Throughout, we will explore the critical importance of introspection, self-care, and the cultivation of spiritual wellness as foundational elements for personal rebirth.
Equipped with these insights, you are poised to transform your life’s challenges into stepping stones towards a more authentic and fulfilling existence. Unlock your secrets to building resilience, finding clarity in chaos, empowering you to awaken to your true potential and lead a life aligned with your deepest values and aspirations.
MY PERSONAL STORY:
Before we dive into the details, I would like to share a bit about my own journey. Like many of you, I have faced my own challenges and moments of stagnation. Through personal growth and self-help, I was able to transform my life and create a sense of purpose and fulfilment. I hope that by sharing my story, it will inspire and empower you to embark on your own journey of personal growth.
Dear Hunter of the Truth and Force that brought you here,
I share openly, wildly and freely… This was a place of vulnerability, after having been returned to my point zero for a good while, until I could grasp the magnitude of how my life had just been Obliterated.
IT IS OK NOT TO HAVE THE ALL THE ANSWERS RIGHT NOW.
I was just done for a moment! It felt like all the moments had caught up to this PAUSE in time! I felt like this cannot be what life is about! I felt like is this it? Just chaos, lessons and then some heroic story cause you survived it? Is that what this human experience was going to be? Is this how I saw my life going? Was my life going to continue Veiled, not knowing, a never ending pursuit of pursuits? I lay there asking in silence, why is it important that I finish this race?
Why is the outcome of my life important, or even significant in any way? What could my life possibly become at this point? I am fucked! I’m angry! I feel lost! I fucking don’t know what I mean anymore! At that moment I didn’t even have the energy to even think straight, let alone see that it was going to be possible to rise out of that pit. I simply at that moment could not see anything further than feeling the cold wet concrete on my skin , and I could see no way yet out of what had just happened.
P.S : SIDE NOTE : This is when you can make costly mistakes like I did. I was vulnerable and desperate and the companies online that were offering programs that could get me from my desperate state financially into the online space within 72 hours, were showing up in my feeds and right there to be the so called solution for my point zero state. Well I fell for it, and I only found thousands of pre recorded videos and meditations, barely any support and smoke screens and very real lies about what it actually takes to get online.
When you are in this point zero state it is my advice not to be jumping into programs and cashing in your life savings for the high tickets to success overnight, but it is to be still for a moment. It is a for a short space of time very important to gather yourself and allow the trauma of everything to settle. I understand you need money and have to work and provide and all the things, but trust me without careful decision making through healing just a little first, it will more then likely like it did with me , gong to cost you thousands , too much time in creating something that is not and is not possible to be aligned to you at this stage and a different type of trauma which exists in the online world.
I Digress… let’s get back to the story.
I spent days just in that space and just listened to my heart beat inside of my chest and begged Spirit that if this is what will continue in my life, if this is what keeps happening, if this level of crisis keeps looping and happening then NO.. it’s a NO from here, and it ends today or I end today! Did it end that day, no. Did I end that day no, well a portion of me did, But it sure has hell felt good to say it, to scream it, to cry it, to scream it. I needed to question my existence and to have anger and despair hold sway.
You can only see things looking back sometimes! What I did not know at that moment was that energetically my soul was directing my body to move itself into that fetal position known as balasana, to let go and surrender to all that no longer was about to serve me. My soul was cultivating a new and brighter vision. So much is going on under the surface of your skin, and it’s in your favor. You are about to rebirth. You are beginning to awaken from the dream of separation and the egoic mind.
YOUR REBIRTH:
Life is filled with challenges and struggles that can leave you feeling stuck and overwhelmed. The fetal position is a metaphorical representation of the moments when you feel trapped, hopeless, and unable to move forward. It signifies the need for change, growth, and a rebirth of the self.
YOUR EXPERIENCE:
Navigating the rough seas of your life, I recognize the tides that have swept you into the eye of your own personal fetal position. I’ve been there, too, where the night is pitch-black with uncertainty, and the waves of despair threaten to engulf the very essence of who you are. Believe me when I tell this truth: you are not unseen. I have felt the sting of the icy waters, the paralysis of indecision, and the suffocating weight of the unknown pressing upon my chest.
Like a lighthouse calling out to a ship lost in the storm, I offer my understanding as a signal of hope and guidance. Know that my heart reaches out to yours, acknowledging your pain, respecting your journey, and standing witness to the incredible strength that lies untapped within you. You are not alone. For every night does indeed turn to day; each constriction is but a prelude to expansiveness.
How does this contribute to you building wealth,
health, success & happiness?
Navigating through adversity and self-reflection equips you with invaluable insight into your own psyche and strengths, which is crucial for any form of success. By understanding the role of the ego or protective and preforming personality and embracing your lessons with love, you set the foundation for a healthy state of mind. This heart fortitude paves the way for wealth—not just in monetary terms but in the richness of life experiences and relationships. Success is also how good you feel!
Happiness stems from the alignment of your inner world with the outer, and by reconstructing yourself with the guidance shared here, you move closer to a state of contentment and joy that is both robust and sustainable. This journey of rebirth you’re on is not just about surviving the storm; it’s about thriving in the aftermath, with a newfound clarity and purpose and a prosperous future.
“ I am here to guide you to your individual differentiation and your personal revolution!”
“Rising and going through the stages of Awakening can be brutal but it leads you to the paths of success, fulfilment and profound transformations.”
WIDSOM JEMS:
YOU ARE A PIECE OF ART! This is a time to piece yourself back together in a way that can reset the trajectory of, where you go, what you do, and how you do it forever. It is my Genius to help you gather the pieces of what you have thrown away or not even been conscious about and weave it into a incredible future journey where this place that you are in gets to be the last time that happens.
YOUR SPIRITUAL KEYS:
There are universal keys that resonate on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual planes. These keys are not just concepts, but actionable insights that align with the wisdom shared in your transformation journey.
- Physical Key: Embodiment:
– To unlock the physical aspect, the key is embodiment. This is the practice of inhabiting your body fully, engaging with senses and sensations, and expressing your inner state through activities like breath work or dance, walking or a movement that moves you. Physical presence becomes a conduit for grounding spiritual energy. Nature will cleanse you with her wind baths, the salts of her sea, the… - Emotional Key: Compassion:
– On the emotional level, compassion, both for oneself and for others, acts as a key to unlocking the heart. It enables the healing of old emotional wounds and facilitates a deeper connection with the emotional bodies of others. - Mental Key: Clarity:
– For the mental dimension, the key is clarity. Achieving a clear, unfettered mind through meditation and mindfulness practices can expand awareness and foster a peaceful state of being, facilitating alignment with higher consciousness. - Spiritual Key: Connection:
– At the spiritual core, the key is connection. Recognising the interconnectivity of all life and nurturing a deep, personal relationship with the universe unlocks a profound sense of belonging and purpose, allowing the spirit to soar to new heights.
There are universal keys that resonate on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual planes. These keys are not just concepts, but actionable insights that align with the wisdom shared in your transformation journey.
- Physical Key: Embodiment:
– To unlock the physical aspect, the key is embodiment. This is the practice of inhabiting your body fully, engaging with senses and sensations, and expressing your inner state through activities like breath work or dance, walking or a movement that moves you. Physical presence becomes a conduit for grounding spiritual energy. Nature will cleanse you with her wind baths, the salts of her sea, the… - Emotional Key: Compassion:
– On the emotional level, compassion, both for oneself and for others, acts as a key to unlocking the heart. It enables the healing of old emotional wounds and facilitates a deeper connection with the emotional bodies of others. - Mental Key: Clarity:
– For the mental dimension, the key is clarity. Achieving a clear, unfettered mind through meditation and mindfulness practices can expand awareness and foster a peaceful state of being, facilitating alignment with higher consciousness. - Spiritual Key: Connection:
– At the spiritual core, the key is connection. Recognising the interconnectivity of all life and nurturing a deep, personal relationship with the universe unlocks a profound sense of belonging and purpose, allowing the spirit to soar to new heights.
PONDERS AND WONDERS:
As we stand at the threshold of transformation, it’s essential to remember that the journey inward is perhaps the most courageous quest one can undertake. Reassembling the pieces of our fragmented selves requires not just vision but a heart willing to traverse the shadowed corridors of our being. The tapestry of our future is woven with threads of past sorrows, lessons learned, and the bright strands of our unfolding dreams.
Each crisis, each moment we have spent in the fetal position, serves as a catalyst propelling us towards a greater understanding of our purpose and place in the world. As we emerge, reborn and renewed, we step into a life sculpted by our own hands, reflective of the masterpiece we’ve always been destined to become. Your journey towards rebirth is your creation of a self that is a harmonious blend of past, present, and the boundless potential of tomorrow.
AWAKENING FITNESS:
When you have had an Awakening so many shifts happen in your mind, body, soul and spirit. Your body changes…Your mind changes…Your soul changes…Your spiritual walk changes…Finding your footing after an Awakening can be overwhelming, with all the changes and fluctuations. You need to get Mindfit, SoulFit, Bodfit, Spiritfit... to align to what you have Awakened to.
RABBIT HOLE NAVIGATIONS:
I’d like to emphasise that the most Powerful resource available is your own experience with the Source, with God, in whatever way feels Authentic to you. Engaging personally with the Divine Consciousness allows you to realize who you are, providing you with all the knowledge you need through this connection. It is in the quiet moments, when you simply allow yourself to connect, ask, and enter a state of meditation, that you can commune with your creator. Your heart holds all the answers, and you possess an internal guidance system that is awakening and now requires new training and refinement. This journey involves unlearning old patterns and rediscovering how to feel in new ways!
- “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle – Tolle’s influential work delves into the idea of the present moment as a key to spiritual enlightenment, dissecting the ego and providing guidance on transcending its limitations for personal growth.
- “Dark Nights of the Soul” by Thomas Moore – This book offers a compassionate exploration of life’s challenging phases, often referred to as ‘dark nights of the soul’, and the role they play in the transformative process, including the dissolution of the ego and the emergence of a more authentic self.
- “Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche” by Robert A. Johnson – Johnson’s compelling text introduces the concept of the shadow, the hidden parts of our personality, and the importance of integrating this aspect to achieve wholeness and spiritual maturity.
- “Integral Spirituality” by Ken Wilber – Wilber presents a framework for understanding the multi-faceted aspects of spirituality, including the ego’s part in spiritual development and the incorporation of shadow work as a means to awakening.
- “Falling Upward: A Spirituality for the Two Halves of Life” by Richard Rohr – Rohr explores the idea of two stages in life: the building of the ego, and the spiritual quest that often follows its unraveling, advocating for the embrace of our imperfections through shadow integration for true spiritual progress.
- The Energy Codes: The 7-Step System to Awaken Your Spirit, Heal Your Body, and Live Your Best Life – by Dr Sue Morter
“It’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
– LEWIS CAROL, ALICE IN WONDERLAND
Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to?”
If you’re navigating the aftermath of Ego Death, having tasted awakening and seeking strategic guidance for your rebirth.
HOP ON YOUR COACHING SESSION TO DISCOVER THE ROADMAP, CUSTOMISED TO YOU, TO CRAFT STRATEGIES AND POTENTIAL IN THIS PIVOTAL PHASE.
